Exhausted...

      Today...nothing seemed to go right.  From the lack of sleep, to the loads of homework, to chapters upon chapters of Grudom, to meetings upon meetings, to really sore bruises from being a retarded klutz , to being really sick... I am grumpy, and discouraged, and hurt.  I keep remembering the Psalm that says, "Those who sow in tears will reap in joy."  I am ready and trying my best to make leaps and bounds to joy.  But today, was a "sowing in tears" kind of day.  I talked with my mom this morning and she read to me from her devotional.  It was about playing the piano and how a song is most beautifully played if it is played with the sharps and the flats.  Without them, you would only be playing the white keys, and that would make the song pretty boring.  But when you add in the black keys the song is interesting and beautiful.  The song was meant to be played with the both the white and black keys, it completes the song.  This is also how life is, if nothing went wrong or if things weren't difficult, our lives would be somewhat meaningless and dull.  It is the moments of black keys added to the times of our white keys that makes our story beautiful.  It is just hard when you feel like the song of your life currently is just the black keys.  

     When ever I am really down my mom reminds me of a pastor that said, "Friday is here (the day of Christ's death, our pain) but Sunday is coming!"  I can't wait for Sunday to come :)